BOLANLE COLE

           My Monday started out like every other morning, except that this particular monday morning i started thinking twice about my job i was loosing myself and almost going into depression but i had no one to talk to. The atmosphere no longer made sense, it had become toxic, i felt i wasn't supposed to be there because i was just used and caged. whenever my mom called me and i wanted to tell her how i felt but i just couldnt because i felt it was time to start giving her back, so i would just hold the thought, even when i called my friends or they called me they always began the conversations by calling me a working class lady and  teasing me about how lucky i was to have a job with a steady pay, they would tell me to keep my ears on the ground to know when next my office was recruiting now how do you tell a person like this that you are not happy? see they will just swear for you, they don' t know my story my name Bolanle Cole, am here to define true happiness.

        You see, growing up i wanted to be a lot of things because i knew i was built strong and i could do and be more than just one thing but the moment i was rounding up high school entertainment was the one thing on mind,  at first i had thought of music but i changed my mind because i felt i didn't have the voice do music plus i saw the industry as a male zone,'' bola snap off that thought music wasn't something you exactly wanted to do, lets just say you loved  listening to music''  i had planned to break into the entertainment industry  anyhow so i found out i had a thing for acting, i was doing dramas and play around me while thinking of how to make it out of this hood  i spent more time around arts and literature then i saw two movies that made me believe in AMBO ''WHITE WATERS'' where OC UKEJE played the lead role but CINDY'S NOTES where Bay-ray MC Nwizu played the lead role  Ah! that movie was the real deal that day is still one of my most memorable days  that day i learnt the real meaning of being a role model and taking responsibility thus igniting my thought of giving back to the society someday no matter how small because that movie thought me as how you can contribute to society irrespective of how young you think you are.

              Now while i was thinking of pushing my acting career my father had other plans for me, man wanted his daughter to be a lawyer, infact as far as he was concerned  i had  already read law when the time to go the university came he was ready to do anything to make sure i gained that admission to do law but God had other plans  i did something else in arts where as the initial plan was theater arts i was hurt but then i remembered Amstel Malta Box Office and promised myself that i could still make that acting career through the AMBO platform  or even the PEFTI film institute so i just focused on graduating first as that was the only thing my family wanted to hear especially my father  but the funny thing was the moment i graduated i no longer thought about acting, i started looking at just the cooperate world, thus the reason  i landed myself in that  job that kept me used, caged, unfulfilling and unhappy simply because  i couldnt  or rather i refused to chase my dream, i was just taking whatever life threw at me.

              By the time i was done going down memory lane i became more uneasy because the thought of chasing my acting career or better still doing broadcasting and staying happy had occupied my mind and my sanity started coming back to me as i kept checking the calendar for  date because i    had made up my mind to leave by the next pay day then i looked at the calendar and smiled  pay day was close, i smiled because i was already going to draft my resignation letter  within  minutes, i still remember  the smile on my face the day i left that office even the fresh breath of air i inhaled can not be forgetten ....